I will never forget how painful that night was.. Those words were. After being asleep for 2 hours or so, my mom frantically woke me up. My already paralyzed grandmother had fallen and couldn’t get up. Already out of my proper state of mind I tried to help her up but couldn’t. My mom told me to call my dad.
My dad.. He was at my aunts house. My aunt had been battling cancer for 5 years, and march of 2013 was not a good month. Her cancer returned in so many locations that it was more than impossible to treat. He had been staying with my aunt who could not move or talk anymore.
So I called my dad. I knew that my aunt was really sick, so the first thing I asked was “how is Horkur?” His next words will ring in my ear a send chills through me forever. “Raffi, Horkur passed away”.
This is not even exaggeration but my entire body went numb. I handed the phone to my mom, my grandma confused on the ground. I just walked out of the room. I got onto my bed and collapsed. My body had never fallen apart like this before. That night, I probably cried more ham I had ever before in my life.
Before I knew it, 1am had come and my house seemed to be the gathering location. My other aunt and cousin came to help my grandmother up. My dad and his brother came too. I sat there on the couch crying.
Ill never forget that before I started to cry, I got my phone and texted you. I knew you were asleep but I needed you. And though you were asleep, you were still there for me. I tried to sleep that night but couldn’t. The next morning, I came to Starbucks and you were there waiting for me. You held me and I cried more. We left and went by Ralph’s. I had no more control over my emotions. I just felt dead. You brought me candy and tissues. You gave me love and support which was all I needed.
2013 has been the worst year of my family’s life. But 2013 has been the best year of my life because of you Angela. I can’t thank you enough for standing by me through everything that has happened this year.
Ps. Explanation for the title: January 22nd 2013, my grandfather passed away. The song Stay, by Rihanna was playing on my computer. It was fitting. March 22nd 2013, my aunt passed away and Stay was the first song I heard afterwards.